Summer/Life Goal-Do More Yoga

Don't you ever feel like things are going to fast?  This is my constant feeling: that there are a thousand things to do and not enough time to do them in.  I feel like I make tons of life sacrifices that I should really reevaluate for my sanity and happiness.  I give up a lot of family time and me time for things that are just really not that critical.  My worry is that I am not productive enough or working hard enough or getting done what I want to get done.

What is it really I want to get done?  Truthfully what I want is to be the best at all things when I constantly tell myself I am the worst.  I want to be the best person, daughter, wife, teacher, sister, athlete, etc.  This puts on tons of constant pressure, and I always feel this anxiety.  This year it was quite overwhelming, so I am looking forward to having some time to rethink my priorities for self and family and outlook.  I am hoping to take some more me time and try to feel less guilty when I do so.

One of the things I need to get back into that I think will help with that balance is a daily or at least more than once a month yoga practice.  Mom and I used to go weekly to the YMCA; our instructor was fabulous and it was an hour and a half where I didn't worry about whatever else was happening.  I just got to focus on stretching, breathing and feeling really good.  Our great instructor is no longer with the Franklin YMCA because that place is full of shenanigans, but she is out teaching at other areas and I may look into some of her summer classes that are not Franklin based.

I am also resolving to do more independent practice at home.  YouTube fitness channels have been my friend throughout the past fall, winter, spring seasons and I am trying out a 30-day yoga challenge.  The videos are not as long as a full class, but they will be sufficient for getting some quiet time and stretching and self-reflection.  I think this will be a good habit especially once my two classes kick into gear and I need a brain break from the wonders of online learning (blerg).  

My natural inclination is to constantly fill my time with tasks; I don't want to do that this summer.  I absolutely have to-dos and goals, but I don't want days so crammed that I race through my summer and regret not just being still and relaxed for some bits.  So we'll try this out and see what happens.