Not ready for tomorrow

Tomorrow I will say good bye to a great group of kids.  They were amazing and fun and funny and kind and I hope they enjoyed the year as much as I enjoyed getting to be their teacher.  Who know if I will see them again and in what capacity.  Monday I will say good bye to my colleagues for the summer and possibly for an indeterminable amound of time.  To say the past several weeks have been fraught would be an understatement.  I am angry and sad and tired all of the time.  My mother is thankful I have not replaced food with running and I am so glad I have had a great group of kids to keep me focused on what is the objective.  My husband is never short of hugs and understanding, and my coworkers are never short of words of kindness and hope as I move through this mysterious period.  However, I feel so unable to move in any direction and paralyzed by anger/sadness to change my course and figure out what is next.  I am not ready for what tomorrow brings, I would just prefer to freeze the moment and stay there indefinitely.